26 years old and still struggling with food

by Becky

I am a 26 year old female with severe food issues. I knew it was something more than just being picky.I have tried to overcome these issues my entire life. For the life of me, I cannot get over new textures, new tastes, or new smells. There are too many to get used to. As odd as it sounds, I get overwhelmed when I bite into a new food, often leading to gagging. Since I have dealt with it my whole life, I know my own breaking point. And I hate to gag in front of people because it is humiliating that a food item that everybody eats daily/weekly makes me gag. I can only manage to eat red delicious apples (skinned), white potatoes (skinned), corn, and maybe a banana. That is all the fruits and veggies I eat. That's it! And my meals consist of plain pork chops, plain chicken breast, plain noodles with cheese, scrambled eggs, pancakes, french toast, a deli sandwich (which is only turkey and a slice of cheese), or a grilled cheese sandwich. It is very boring, repetitive, and been old.

I am very malnourished in my own opinion. I am 5'7'' and only weigh 120 lbs. I have little muscle and my wrists have not grown since the 4th grade. (My Mickey Mouse watch still fits on the same hole on the strap.)

It is a daily struggle to eat. If I could live and not eat food, I would. Every meal creates great anxiety for me and a feeling of failure. I want to eat healthy. I want to feel energized. I want to feel normal. And yet, I can't or don't know how to overcome this.

I have a 10 month old daughter who is eating the baby food out of a jar. She gags and refuses to eat Cheerios or infant snacks like these things called puffs. She will gag when they start to stick to her fingers! Concerned, I contact the pediatrician and he said that by 12 months of age if she still won't eat crunchier or thicker foods that I need to take her to a food therapist.

I 'googled' food therapist and it came up with related links and I stumbled upon this sight. I could not believe what I was reading! I was thrilled! I shared it with my husband and I had to call my mom.

I want to live for my daughter. I am terrified to die young because of the malnourished state I'm in. I need to overcome this. I can't teach my daughter how to overcome her high sensitivity if I haven't figured it out myself.

I don't even know what anyone can do for treatment for this. Or who to go to. If there's little known out there about this then there's little known treatment. How do I find someone out there who's willing to work with me?

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Oct 13, 2014
Food struggles
by: Genn

Hi Becky,
Thank you for writing about your struggles. My 15 1/2 year old daughter eats the same foods you do, so, you're not alone! As a child we had years of food struggles. Now she's just embarrassed and humiliated. Feels odd and socially isolated. Anxiety has caused many meltdowns aside from food, but the sensory issue keeps it all related.

Is there any advice you would give to her? Her doctor told her she can eat even though my daughter said she can't. Nutritionists said she's doing it to get arise even though she told me she wishes she could eat anything.

As a mom, I can tell you what I do and maybe it will help you a little bit. I purée vegetables and sneak them into some of the few foods she eats. She would be life long angry with me if she knew! But I do it because I love her. She loves sweets and hates nutrition so I need to know she's getting what she needs to grow. I can't keep this up forever because she'll go to college soon. Also, I recognize that it's not teaching her how to eat because she can't tell it's in her food. But I'm more relaxed knowing she's getting something. I can only take it one day at a time. There doesn't seem to be much in the way of help.

I plan on always checking the internet. More and more information seems to be posted. Last year I read about Selective Eating Disorder(which our doctor and soocial worker didn't think was real).

In terms of you being malnourished, are you taking supplements? My daughter is fearful of being obese and getting diabetes even though her current weight is perfect( I know she's not consuming enough calories per day). Very scary for a child but I pointed that out to her so she can take necessary steps in accepting the help I am trying to offer her.

What kinds of challenges did your mom face with your issues? I look forward to heaing back from you.

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