Getting Worse As I Get Older
I've had tactile defensiveness my whole life, and I feel like it's getting worse as I get older. There were clothings that I used to wear that I can't even stand touching now. Even if it's 100 degrees outside, I cannot bear to wear jeans, dress pants, khakis, chinos, etc. without wearing a "protective layer" underneath. And this is usually a very specific pair of cotton leggings that I've been fortunate enough to find. If I find a pair that works, I will buy like 10 more of it.
Not all leggings work. Sometimes I would just wear black yoga or pajama pants and try to pass them off as dress pants. I also wear a tissue tee underneath most tops. When I shop for clothes, I will perform the touch test first. It doesn't matter how good something looks. If it doesn't feel right, I won't even try it on. What is the point? If I force myself to wear it, I will break out in cold sweat and feel sick all day until I take it off. I'm about seven months pregnant now and it just feels even worse as I struggle to find maternity clothes that feel right.