Tactile Defensiveness

I'm young. Not even in high school. And I have, these... things. It's supposed to be called " Tactile Defensiveness Disorder" (TDD) and misophonia. TDD causes extreme pain when touching certain things. For me it's paper, wood, cardboard, things of the like. But when my hands are wet? The pain is multiplied. My hands burn, as if there was some sort of friction. The searing heat goes up my arm, and into my teeth, until I begin to want to cry. This is the same for me if I scratch it. This is also awful at school. I have to go to the bathroom. I go. I wash my hands, because it would rude and disgusting not to. Then I go back to class and have no choice but to touch the paper and feel that awful pain.

Not only do I have to live with TDD, I also have mild, misophonia, but it can get worse as you grow older. This is a disorder that makes certain sounds painful. I don't mean a little ringing. No, this is a sound that is unbearable. The worst part is, when people find out, they have no sympathy. They will normally tease you, doing what ever they can. If I hear, cardboard squeaking, or two pieces of paper rubbing together... I swear. It makes me want to cut off my ear! In fact, it has been known for many people with misophonia, to go insane. To damage their ears just to dismiss the sound. But nobody else understands. In 5th grade, a group of boys would come up to me, paper in hands, and torture me the awful sound...scratch...scratch...