What do I do?
I am going to be 16 years old on September 16th.
I'm in 10th grade and attend public school, the same one I've been going to since kindergarten. I was a straight A student. When eighth and ninth grade, mainly ninth came around, my grades, my attendance, and other things started to go.
I've been asking my parents for a year of some other form of schooling so I can get things on track, but everything is happening so difficultly. They called the dean of my school, they just, really don't understand what I'm going through. I think I have Borderline Personality Disorder, but of course nobody else thinks so. This year, when I'm in class I just feel trapped, like I can't leave if I'm feeling like I just need to get away for a while.
I really need one year to get things on track, but how am I going to do this? Everyone has gone through so much trouble because of me already, and that's making me really sad. It's causing everyone issues, but I don't want it too.
My plan was in 11th grade to be back in the school, which is one year. Then I would be ready. I'm just kind of a mess right now, and I know some people would just say "toughen out," and "stick it out," but I just can't. I need it so bad.
Do you have any suggestions?