I need help?!?!

by Jessica
(New Zealand)

I'm 14, and I can't stand the feel of different textures, I can't even eat an ice block or whip my noes with a tissue because of the feeling, just the touch of it makes me shiver and cringe even the thought of the feeling on my fingers makes me feel all funny, it legitimately feels as though the tissue is grinding between my teeth even though it obviously isn't, it's not only these things it could be just the feeling of paper or a certain texture anything really, I hate the feeling of wet hands touching dry hair and dry hands touching wet hair, I really don't know how it all started, I mean I'm pretty sure I wasn't born like this?

But ever since I was 7-8 I just couldn't possibly bring myself to touch some things and I really didn't understand why? I'm not even sure if I even have SPD but I have quite a few symptoms I guess? I'm not really sure how to word all this and I'm not sure if anyone can even relate to this. But would someone be able to help me out?