hi my son is 4 nearly 5 and is asd, wondering if anyone can help, he has been super hard since the min i fell pregnant, but he still throws major tantrums, drives me insane with doing this thing where he wants it but doesn't.
an example is last night i asked him to clean up before bed, he refused so he went to bed then was screaming that he wanted to clean up so i said go clean up be he screams he doesn't want to, this continues for awhile he wants to but doesn't. he does this with other situations like waking through night to do a wee and screaming so i take him to toilet but he screams he doesn't want to but then does but doesnt.
he also wakes every night screaming and carrying on, its not nightmares he has been doing it since a baby, every now and then he will sleep through so i know he can do it but then he starts this waking and again will want me to lay with him but doesnt, he wont just settle, some times it last 5 min other times 20 min or more.
he also stutters bad.
some times i feel like the worst mother and loose my temper with him, i feel guilty that i just wish he was like any other kid and i know i shouldn't feel that way i love him more than anything i cant stand to think of him not being in my life but i am exhausted
i want to have another baby but i feel like i never will every year i hope its better with him but it never is and if i keep waiting i will never get to have another one but how will i cope if i do