Do you love me?

by Faith
(North Carolina)

Hello. I am a 13 year old with SPD. Noise hurts, touch hurts, even light can hurt. I don't mean to be picky or a prima Dona when I can't do certain things.

Most of my SPD is in my emotions. When I watch movie I feel the emotion, anger , jealousy, sorrow. When I was little and didn't know how to cope with SPD, I would act like the characters on the tv.

Another thing I am still having trouble with is bonding. I can't hug my parents. I can't kiss them. It hard for me to bond with them. I see their frustration and it hurts to think that I am the reason their upset. I love them, I just have a different way of showing my emotions.

Sometimes I feel no one loves me. I get in sad moods then, my confidence goes down and I cry through the night. Dreaming of people continually rejecting me. Parents, please always tell your SPD kids that you love them. Spd kids have to go through a lot and at the end of the day they just want to know they are loved no matter what. I know that you love your kids but sometimes we just have to hear this three words a couple times a day. It's comforting.

Even when we can't show our affection we will always love you back. I know it may be frustrating to understand us but please I beg of you to have patience. We have to learn to cope with our ability and disability everyday. Parents can even be our only friend.