30 YEAR OLD PICKY EATER
I came across this site while trying to find help to an eating disorder. I found the children section on picky eating first and went on to discovering the rest of the site which is quite interesting.
The problem I have is regarding eating (at least this is the part bothering me). While I lived with my parents (specially my mother) I have had serious trouble identifying some problems with myself that were "masked" by an overprotective environment.
From the moment I got married and moved out I started discovering some very interesting stuff, including a serious allergy problem I never knew existed. It seems obvious now, but the last 20-something years I just thought it was normal to be sneezing all day long.... go figure.
Now I decided I need to develop better eating habits. My diet consists basically of beef, rice and potatoes. No veggies, no fruit, no fish, no chicken, no nothing. First problem is obviously that this is bad for my health. Second and very overwhelming problem is that it makes it terrible to eat out of a controlled environment. Invitations to dinner cause something close to panic.
So, easy right, I just start trying small portions of veggies.. and in some time I'll accept it better and start eating them. Well, I tried. I turns out that in order to each a minimum amount of lettuce I would get so stressed that I would be quite tense and have my muscles would physically hurt. My stomach would feel really bad after that. And that is a small portion of lettuce mixed in a full plate of other stuff I liked. But I insisted on it and things didn't get better. Actually, lunch became a burden every day until I gave up.
From then on, I kept thinking this my be some psychological problem because I was really willing to eat those. One time I tried eating
about a quarter of a lettuce leaf and ended up throwing up.
Pessoal are really amazed when I tell them what I eat. That alone makes for a terrible social situation. When they ask, the best explanation I can get is that the "texture" of the food makes me sick. In fact, if I blend the fruit with milk or something I can drink it, but I can never eat them.
If I could remove the tension I feel, I could probably eat them but I am not able to manage that right now.
I took the test for the symptoms of SPD am marked 26 of the 49 first items. I don't know if this can be considered as SPD or not.
Other symptoms that might or might not be related are the anxieties I have regarding some stuff: if you get somebody talking about medical procedures and diseases around me I'll start feeling bad, get some cold sweating until I will throw up.
If I am going to get blood for an exam, I can go in there, they take the blood out and I am ok. 30 seconds after they finish I must be lying down or my stomach gets really bad and I almost faint (actually did it once).
All this might be interconnected somehow, but I am focused on trying to find a way of eating healthier. The "just stop complaining and eat them" solution doesn't seem to work well for me. I really tried and got to a point where I either stopped or I'd have serious nervous problems during all my day.
Please let me know if I fit on the SPD story or if there is any way I can confirm that. Also, I'd appreciate any suggestion you might have to help me fix this eating problem. It is a huge deal for me socially impacting even my job obligations sometimes.