Exhausted and defeated
I have a 3.5 year old son, sensory seeker, possibly mild Aspergers, and temperamentally very fussy and rigid. He has been in early intervention since age 2 - OT, PT, therapeutic playgroups, preschool, you name it. (we had to drop the OT about a year ago because he didn't qualify anymore and we are now going to pursue it privately at our own expense b/c we think he really needs it.)
I am searching for others who can relate b/c I am at my wits end. I never feel like I can relax. All I ever wanted was to create a loving, relaxed environment in my home and it feels impossible. I have been more patient and nurturing than anyone I know, but the past few days I just want to scream, cry, tear my hair out. I know how dramatic that sounds, but there is just no peace.
I never feel like I can just be a mom, I feel like a therapist. I have to warn him before I turn on the coffee maker, the garbage disposal, the dryer. I cringe every time I hear something drop to the floor because I know it will be a meltdown. I can't make everything okay anymore. sigh.
Can someone tell me it gets better ?