How can I keep going?
(Eau Claire WI)
My daughter was labelled with SPD when she was almost 3, if I remember correctly. (it's so difficult to remember anything, nowadays. this has been extremely mentally taxing, as a single mother.) She's only 4 1/2, now... I can't figure this out. I need help. I feel like giving up, often. Her father is hardly available to help. I've asked the county to provide respite so I can get a mental break, but she seems to come home worse off. I also have a son(9 years old) with ADHD, or possible SPD(undiagnosed). I, myself may be an SPD adult(likely) and I AM LOSING MY MIND!!!!!!! WHERE IS THE RELIEF?
I can't really tell my "story" because today is not a good day. I can't get her to sit at the table and eat. My house is messy, cluttered, dishes, floors, cats, etc, etc, and so on... I. Don't. Know. What. To do. This should be some sort of success story but instead, perhaps it's a cry for help. (not that I believe anyone can take time from their precious days/hours/moments to actually DO anything for us..)
We don't have adult spd centers or therapy available in our area. I am on disability for anxiety and supposed depression. Hormonally, I am depressed about 3 days a month. Other than that, I can have panic attacks in social settings. Not that this is about me but I need help. Idk what to do, anymore. I keep going. And keep trying. And keep winging it. It's not working. It's not enough. I love my kids. I love myself. I love life and want to excel. I just don't know where to turn. My disability income isn't enough to support her needs and my son's needs and my own. I can't even afford clothes for myself, on disability. We are 3 special needs ppl under one roof, with no advocacy. With no one to come in and show me how to just be a person, in general. With no one to show me how to keep up with it all...
So, I guess that IS my story... :(