I think i found the answer
I have been having trouble my entire life (27).... I would scream an cry just trying to explain how i feel.... I have been told i was adhd even tho i didnt fit all the criteria... Told i have emotional detachment issues because of my not wanting to be touch... Nobody ever understands that in fact i do want to be comforted when hurting but the creepy feeling even my mother or boyfriend makes whatever im going threw worse... My extreme food preference both taste and texture results in only being able to a few select thing even with that ive been trying to explain at least since my adolescence im not just being picky or fussy most things are genuinely disgusting beyond explanation.... I could go on and on and on....
I feel i just truly discovered what i have been trying to explain my whole life...... Last week after stumbling on this information completely outta nowhere and realizing it really fits.... I went and asked my mother (who has half her psychology degree) do u know what sensory disorder is... She said yes hunny with a look on her face as if ive found out some deep dark secret.... She said i realized u had it around the age ten..... I said wut the hell mom dont you think it would have helped me in life to know that???!!! she screamed your fine! I made you perfect!! Started crying slammed the door and wont talk to me about it..... My question now is how do i find help or even be diagnosed as i am not a doctor????