Is it possible to have a minor form of SPD?
by Marcia H
From as young as I can remember I've had a few of the sme issues that a friend of mine's son (with SPD) does, but certainly not all of them, nor to the same degree. As a young child it used to bug my mother to no end that I had to wear sunglasses outside, even when it was cloudy. I would tell her that my eyes hurt outside. She did not understand and was actually kind of cruel - forcing me go sunglassless for many photos, even in very bright sunlight. Consequently most of the photos of me as a youngster showed me crying. Even now, if someone passes me their i-phone to show me something, I often have to give it back because I can't look at the screen...it's too bright that it hurts.
I've never liked crowds. I don't have claustrophobia. The problem is the noise. My hearing is super sensitive. Movie theatres and concerts are a no-go unless I pre-emptively take a good dose of ibuprofen first. Even that is not always sufficient. I'm always asking my partner to turn down our TV, and then I get THAT look in return. sigh. I hate going with groups of people to places where it's so loud (to me) that I can't hear the person beside me unless their head is turned to me and I parially lip read. And this includes family dinner even. I miss out on so much. It feels horrible.
When there's no background noise, I hear just fine except for the fact that I seem to be able to focus/concentrate so well on something that I don't actually hear when someone is speaking to me. I might notice that someone is talking, but not really realize what they are saying - more so when there are other people around. I have to ask others to use my name when talking to me and make sure I respond in order to know that I am "listening". People think that I don't care what they are saying, but it's not that...it's just that I haven't
registered it in my brain yet. Sometimes I "hear" something several seconds later, too. I think that is partly why I take so long to format my words when in a discussion with someone. I know my pauses can seem very long to the other person, but often I need them. And people just don't understand that. It's not that I'm unintelligent - we all know that people with certain disorders can be very intelligent. I have an above average IQ, but people who don't know me would not necessarily think that if they watched me in the middle of an argument/discussion with my partner. I can't tell you the number of tears I have shed over it.
I was an extremely picky eater as a child. I would often go to bed hungry as my mother would make me sit at the table with my untouched food for two hours before giving up on me. I would gag easily, and not just with food - my sense of smell was even more of a problem than the taste and texture of food. And it didn't matter what the smell...if it was "too strong" for me, I would gag. Even coffee aroma. I still hate the smell. Now that I'm in my forties, I'm much better, but I'm wondering if it's age-related.
When I go to the dentist, I'm a hypersalivater...I can't help it. If someone puts their fingers or dental instruments in my mouth, my salivary glands work overtime. I've also had some gagging issues there.
I was extremely clumsy as a child, but that was often chalked up to the fact that I grew very quickly as a younster and hardly any as a teenager. My head could not keep up with my body. But even now, I seem to bang into things - counters, tables, etc. because it's like my perception of them being there is off a little...kind of like people with depth perception problems, but mine is more spacial around me.
Anyway, is it possible that there are milder forms of SPD?
Thanks for any opinions.