It feels like Im possessed sometimes.

by Eden
(New Zealand)


Sometimes I feel like I'm not even living in my own body. Im a 19 year old female and ive always struggled with relating my body to my mind. I've been in pain for as long as I remember, everyday my body hurts. Sometimes just my lower back and hips, sometimes every joint and muscle aches to the point when it consumes me in a cloud. My head is often foggy, I have migraines with only on and off headaches but mostly just the aura, the brain fog, sensitivity to light and total lack of balance. I have frequent anxiety attacks as I find myself overreacting to situations with such intensity that my brain is overloaded.


Sometimes I feel like my head is going to pop with all the pressure and all the information its receiving. I love to dance but often stumble and trip over my own feet because of vertigo. I love to create jewelry and create art and clothing, I have particular specifications for the things that I surround myself with or wear and so I make things myself so they are just right. Like with clothing I cant stand synthetic fabrics and go to extreme lengths to only wear organic velvet, silk, satin and hemp. I cant stand jeans or dress's with high empire waist bands or shoes. I have fibromyalgia but have only recently realized that it may come hand in hand with SPD. Thank you for reading.

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Apr 21, 2016
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Nickel allergy
by: Anonymous

I am here because my son is exhibiting similar symptoms. As I read your post, I see you have fibromyalgia with joint pain and "brain fog". On that issue, I had this too for years at a time, sometimes feeling better, sometimes worse. I recently found out that I have a metal allergy and believe that has caused all these fibromyalgia symptoms. I love jewelry just like you. I have taken off every piece of jewelry and all of my symptoms subsided. It took a few days for the joint pain to improve. It took about two or three weeks for the brain fog and joint pain to totally resolve. I now only wear "nickel free" jewelry. You can google this too. Fibromyalgia is often a misdiagnosis for a metal allergy. My doctor originally missed this too. I did research to figure it out. Good luck and I hope this helps you.

Nov 08, 2015
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Thank you
by: Eden

Thanks for the comments, Its a hard thing to share as I cant ever really just talk about it with most people so its good to talk about it with people who understand. Its very easy to think that no one else ever feels the way I do but Im very glad to be reassured otherwise :)

Nov 07, 2015
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Couldn't agree more!
by: Flo

I'm so glad to hear about someone else near the same age who is experiencing this. I feel like my senses are on HD and everyone else is getting SD. It's exhausting and I often feel that my head could exploded because it's so clouded and I can't think normally!

Thanks for sharing; helps me feel not so alone in this!

Sep 23, 2015
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SPD at 58 years old
by: Karen C

Hello all I am 58 years old and I was diagnosed with SPD in 2006. Actually my story is in here somewhere. I was in contact with the maker of this web site back in 2005, she is the one that helped me and pointed me in a direction for me to go to be tested. My SPD is severe. My Spd gave me depression and chronic anxiety.I was having a very hard time functioning. I have been on 100 milligrams of Zoloft for depression and anxiety since 2008. My everyday life is a big struggle. I only go out when I need to go out. I can't deal with too hot or or too cold outside temps.

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