My Story

by Kylie
(CT)

I'm 14 and I will be going into high school. I cry all the time. I always just thought it was a teenager thing or whatever but now I'm not so sure. One day during band camp we were taking a break and listening to music. My friend grabbed me so we could dance. I told her to stop, but she kept doing it. Then I burst into tears, my heart rate speed and my breathing got heavy. I think I was having an anxiety attack. Whenever I'm in the car or can't leave a room I plug my ears when I hear a sound I don't like. I've even taken the batteries out of a clock in our living room. When I was in the car with my mom she was chewing gum so as usual I plugged my ears. She got so angry with me. She told me I was being totally disrespectful and she yelled at me for such a long time. I was scared to go home with her because if she was chewing gum I'd get in trouble again.


Whenever somebody, especially teachers, does something that I don't feel is correct I tell them. I'm shocked I haven't gotten in trouble for insubordination yet. One day this guy sitting behind me poked me I told him stop at least twice then I turned around and yelled at him. I couldn't even believe I did that. I can barely remember anything people say to me. When I need to say something and they tell me to wait a minute I will definitely forget by the time they are ready to listen. My dad thinks I have an attitude about everything even when I just say something like alright, or okay because I mean what am I supposed to not say anything. He gets really mad and yells at me over everything I say. I hardly see him anymore because of his new work schedule and it feels like the only time we talk is when he's yelling at me. I cry about it for hours every night. Whenever I need to cry I go to the bathroom or another room. I've been yelled at just for that. I feel terrible all the time and I absolutely hate it. I just want to be normal. How can I be better so that my family will like me again?

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Sep 17, 2011
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praying for you
by: Anonymous

I hope you get the help you need. I am a Mom. Your story touched me and I will definitely be more understanding towards my daughter. My best advice would be to print out the checklist and description of SPD along with what you just posted and show them to anyone that will listen. Your parents, grandparent, aunt, uncle, school counselor, teacher, principle, coach, doctor or neighbor. Don't stop asking and telling until you are heard. You are a smart girl to even seek help and post this. You will feel better when you get help, I will be sending you good thoughts and prayer you get the help you need.

Aug 26, 2011
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It's not your fault
by: Anonymous

If you haven't talked to your doctor about this, I would get an appointment asap. You sound like you're suffering. Show your doctor what you wrote here and It will give him/her good insight into what your problem is. This will get better and you will learn how to handle it. You are experiencing the same symptoms that thousands of other children and teenagers have. This is something you can't control right now but you will be able to with the right help. Hang in there kiddo!

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